I reject your reality and substitute my own

I joined the gym this past weekend and started with my personal trainer on Monday, did a bodyflow class on tuesday (and played hockey) then met with my PT again today. We upped all my weights at least one step. I'm feeling pretty great and actually enjoying being at the gym this time around. Tomorrow I'm going to Zumba with a friend of mine who also joined the gym, and then meeting with my PT again on Friday. So looking forward to the outcome of this!

So I got a job at a vet hospital and I have to say I'm quite happy about this, however I'm starting to find flaws and I'm hoping it's only because we're still setting up and just getting everything going for our opening. But it still worries me - I mean I want to get better marks at school this semester then last and I still have my weekly WW meetings and hockey that are all part of my life that I need, but by the sounds of it, I'm going to be going from school to work and not have too much time for anything else. We are a one doctor practise with a rececptionist and 2 techs/receptionists. We will be hiring in the future should we need to but in the mean time it's only the 4 of us. We will be open 9-9 Monday-Saturday...so I really can't stress enough how worried I am!

School is going well right now...I'm starting to hit a studying lull where I just don't want to do it - I want to come home and relax or sleep. I keep trying to push myself but it's not too convincing right now.

WW is sucking big time - I'm bored with it and having a vey hard time staying on program. I feel like I have no support and no competition which is leading to no desire. But throw on top of that full time school and all this work that's coming up, with the fact that my whole family (immediate and extended) are out of the country, my chance to exercise and cook good healthy meals just isnt there all the time.

Lastly, wedding planning is coming along, but I have to make a few appointments to follow up and change/fix some ideas but right now I'm in limbo with that as well because of the school and work thing. I'm hoping to be able to have some Tuesday evenings off and then be able to get my WW meeting, as well as some of this running around done *fingers crossed*

So in an effort to keep my "resolution" of posting here more often here's another post (wow this has to be some kind of personal record for me). I've been sitting here thinking about a lot of things that are or will be and i'm realising that things are not going to work out the way that i want them too the way things are going right now. I am completely regretting (and have been since July) quitting Costco....they may not have always given me the hours that I wanted and needed but they paid me well enough to still get by and even be able to put money away. The way things are now suck! I have no hours, working for minimum wage and feeling like I dont matter. I realise that since I have been sick part of the reason is because I haven't been able to work my shifts, but even in the summer and during first semester I didn't get the shifts that I needed and wanted.

Unfortunatly I still haven't heard from the job that I interviewed for - what kind of place repeatedly tells you that they will call you either way and then never calls!?  Has anyone heard of anyone hiring??

On a better note, I can't wait to go back to school on Tuesday - Its so nice doing somethng that you're excited for every morning. I mean I loved psychology, but unless I put in a few more years of grad school I wasn't going to be able to do anything with it and I'm just nor ready to go to grad school. I can't wait to get on with my life and actually have a career - no more of this part time job bs - no more working nights, weekends and holidays unless i want to. I'm so ready to move on!

Seeing as it's after midnight - Today I will become a university graduate and recieve my BA[H] Psychology!!!

 ok, so it's been quite a while since I posted anything...really I have no excuse for this since I'm on this site daily reading my friends page and all the updates from the communities I belong to. Well...

Summer is almost over, I really didn't have much of a summer again this year. I took some intersession classes that ate up may and june and then one online class that continued into aug and I just wrote the final for it on friday. And, I've been working like a dog, for the dogs lately. Costco didn't really give me any hours and I have to say I kinda miss that and not having to work during the school year. The kennel gives me lots of hours - which is great for money, but I'm not sure how I'll do with school seeing as I'm used to working in the summer and christmas and not while I'm "studying". Not to mention the few little things that have been getting to me lately. But I've had this weekend off and it's been nice to finish the last of my university and relax for once - really i dont think i've had a weekend off in a long long time!

I'm quite excited about school starting up though, university was great and I'm happy with my degree but now I get to get into something I really like, and I've decided that I'm going to get into as many intramurals and stuff as I can, along with playing hockey at least twice a week! Hopefully Phil and I will get his school issues under control this week and all will be good on that end to - honestly I can't see it not working out - it really has to, we're do for something good happening there.

As for the wedding - we only have 1 more deposit to make and then it's further deposits and the little things. I'm not sure what I'm going to do about my dress now. Originally I was buying one, then I found out I could have it custom made, but I can't shake the image of getting something I'm not completely in love with and hating it forever, so now I'm thinking about buying one again....argh! 

I really should get back to my cleaning and organizing....maybe after dinner I'll get some more energy.

I went today to talk with a florist for the wedding and ended up signing a contract!! I'm getting a really good deal and am quite happy with what we're getting. Tomorrow we're going to put the deposit on the hall (even more excited) and next week (friday) we are sitting down with the people from the non-denominational chapel and 1 potential photographer, followed on Monday with a meeting with the photographer that I want to go with. 

Phil's in charge of the DJ seeing as he works with the co-owner of the company we want, but I feel like I'm covering this too, since I'm riding his ass to remind him to talk/email.

Now we have to look into the limo company we want and see about the cake (because my florist said she can try to beat any deal I get - but we'll see) and that pretty much covers all the big stuff...all the rest is little stuff or stuff that isn't being looked into right now

 how do you accept it, how does it hit you when you can't be at the funeral of one of your closest cousins?

Patt - I love you always, I'll miss you forever. Thank you for all the great memories

Just a quick entry to say....


I'M ENGAGED!!!!! 

A big dose of "welcome to the real world" hit me square in the forehead this morning. As if getting up at 6:30am for my 8:30am Monday morning class wasn't enough, I come home to start putting things down in my day planner and one my big dry erase wall calendar just to come to realise that there isn't enough time in the day, let alone in the week for all the stuff I need to get done!

Let me start off by saying that I must be a masochist! I have 5 psychology classes this semester and 4 of them are 400 level = this mean tons and tons of reading, studying and new this semester; group projects/presentations (time to get over my public speaking fear!) Add that to a 20hour a week + job, two nights of hockey and my volunteer hours for next year *hopefully* and any hope of a social life might have just flown out the window! Also, add in one other BIG thing (that will be discussed as details become official) and it all leads to one thing - JEN IS NUTS!!!

I don't know how I'm gonna survive this semester - hopefully everyone else's is better!

I'm sitting in bed thinking about how I should be reading right now, but I'm not....classes all suck right now.
-Environment is all about making us read more then humanly possible followed by stupid assignments and discussion postings (it's an online course)
-theatre just sucks!

-Musical Experience.....where to start! I've never been so bored in a class in my whole life!!! I feel like this is a repeat of my grade 9 music class....I wish we actually had an intelligent conversation in that class - there are 2 types of people in the class - those who know what's going on and those that shouldn't be in the class....I can't wait for the end of this course - i thought it would be so much better...I have to say, once again the university has disappointed me.


My first day back at work went by pretty quickly- which was good, but my knee didn't think so. It locked up twice just sitting there - I'm really not looking forward to Thursday's shift - it's going to be rough. but the money is appriciated!

Can't wait for Toronto!!! So excited to get out of windsor, away from school and work and just relax....and then wheen I get home I get to FINALLY see my specialist and find out what's going on with my knee. but in order to be able to go i have to have papers and discussions done early since I'll be gone on the due dates :(

I officially hate the university - they don't give a shit about anyone, and make it impossible to try and graduate

that is all

Since I'm already procrasting horribly I figured I'd make a post to update on what's been going on lately...

School:
So far I've survived the first week - the online courses this time around are a lot more work then last semester. 1 I'm really not sure what I'm supposed to be doing, and the other is a lot of reading but I'm keeping up nicely. The on campus classes kinda suck - I'm glad I didn't go to school for business (power to you if you did!! I totally respect your studying ability!). Both classes will help me get my certificate that I'm working on concurrently, but neither will let me type my notes on my laptop, which sucks seeing as that's what I'm used to doing for all my classes.

Work:
First and foremost, I just want to express my sadness at the passing of a wonderful co-worker, Paula, she will be missed by all. It was a complete shock to everyone when they told us on Sunday.
Secondly - work doesn't really seem to be abiding by my light duty doctors note....how is it light duty to have me stand at the door, or stand in clothing for 5 hours when the note says that I'm to have 100% of my weight off my leg 80% of the time? (It's really only 1 specific supervisor that really likes to torture me), and they gave me 4 shifts this week - lots of money, but LOTS of pain in turn. Oh and so far 2 paychecks haven't been directly deposited like they should have been. So needless to say, since all the switches and whatnot that have occured at work I'm slightly more then frustrated with that place.

Everything Else:
- I'm still waiting for my MRI, hopefully I'll hear something tomorrow about that
- I got my outfit for the wedding I'm going to this summer
- I'm trying to get some work experience for after I get out of the U, but people are making that extremely difficult and I'll have to make some follow up phone calls this week
- I would really like to be playing hockey in those 2 leagues this summer, like I had originally planned
- I should be reading right now but I'm not
- things between Phil and I have been great 
- can't wait for Toronto twice this summer

So I went to physio yesterday with the intent to have a heart to heart with my therapist. I have an exhibition game on thursday (the 12th) and the season starts in a week (the 19th). I really want to play and my knee seems to be getting better, which one exception - so I thought that maybe if i work extra hard i'll be ok to play...if not this week- then next. Well...that's not gonna happen, he thinks I did some cartilege (sp?) damage - which measn another MRI, another specialist is gonna have to see me...and worst of all no hockey for a while.

Hopefully everything can get taken care this summer and I'll be able to play in the winter league. I waited 7 years to play again and I got 1 season (minus 2 games) and now I'm on the bench again. it's so frustrating!

In other news, school sucks - it's stressful. My A- dropped to a B+ thanks to a really stupid paper that I thought I did amazing on - apparently not....and exams are coming up - i really need to do some serious studying!

well - off to do some running around

What a great start to the break! I got the flu thursday night and have been sick since ~ thankfully it's starting to look better, but none the less I'm sick and it sucks

Once again I'm procrastinating...I should be working on my last paper of the semester seeing as it's due tomorrow at 10am.....I'm a page an a half into it as we speak (it needs to be between 5 and 8 pages). But, I'm not in the mood to work on it, or to really work on the studying that is luming either. My first exam is this saturday ( I will never understand why we write exams on sat! They also tell us to study in the situation you'll be writing in....and saturdays just don't fit!) 

But anyways on to better things...Christmas is 21 days away. I'm excited...I'm like a little kid! I'm really excited this year to give everyone their presents - I thought these out very well and I think everyone is gonna love them  

Work has been pretty good, I'm starting to get the hours I need...mind you with exams they got drastically slashed again, and other then them scheduling me tonight while I'm in biology, and not changing my name tag to say that I'm certified first aid/cpr....life at costco is pretty good.....I do suggest that you stay away on the weekends though - it's a freaking nut house!!!

this semester just seems to keep dragging on and now that it's almost done I couldn't be happier! Only 32 days til xmas and I thought I had all my shopping done, but I guess I need to get one more thing....grrr.

I am so ready for this semester to be over....I have 2 more big papers to do, a little one and one more bio lab...I'm just having such a hard time getting these things done. I stay at my computer from 10 am this morning til about 3 this afternoon and only got a page of my intro done, and read half a chapter! I don't know what's going on with me...I need more....something, but I don't quite know what it is.

Tomorrow I work 10:30 -3:30....so that's going to be a break from the homework but at the same time it's going to take away from me doing any work.

On the other hand I should be getting more shifts at work now so that will help me get some better paycheques, this will be a good thing...

anyway back to Grey's

Christmas Wish List (2006) 

Ok, so this was done last year and I snatched the idea from a fellow lj'er and when she put it up again this year I thought it would be a good idea again!

Step One:

- Make a post (public, friendslocked, filtered . . . whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fun ("I'd love a _____ icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

- If you wish for real possible things, make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

- Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ, or link to this post so that the holiday joy will spread.


Step Two:

- Surf around your friends list (or friend's friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

- Once a wish has been granted, it will be crossed off the list.


Step Three:

- You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

- There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just . . . wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.



My list to follow

So once again it's been a while since i've made a post, but what better time then now to update - seeing as i'm supposed to be writing a paper....however i managed to get a case of writers block and procrastination - NOT A GOOD COMBO!!!. I finished a paper last night that is due on wed (yes, i'm probably the only loser writing a paper on saturday night!), and this one is due thursday. I have good intentions and great ideas i just can't seem to get them down on the paper....
I do have other work to be doing but i really have no ambition to do it - i would like to crawl into bed and sleep until xmas eve....

work called me today - caught me off gaurd, if i knew they would be offering me a shift today i wouldn't have procrastinated so much and i would have been able to take it....unfortunatly it was a surprise. but i am on the schedule for next sunday - 5 hours at time an a half.....i can deal with that. they can keep up these 1 shift a week sunday's only deals!

so i should  go back to working...

So, here's another one of my I-leave-for-a-long-time-then-update updates. I've been reading everyone elses posts but haven't had the energy or desire to post myself. School is trying to kill me. All my profs have decided that their class is most important and pile on the work and reading and whatnot. One of my profs posted on the website about a volunteer position so I, being the one of jump at it, goes and fills in the application and doesn't really think much of it - until now when I decided it isn't what I want to do and I don't really have time to do it anyway. 

I'm going to hand in my form and money for hockey intermurals in a little while (this I am sure of). I just want to make sure that I'll get my cash back if I'm not on a team (there are 122 other free agents as of this past weekend) and if that is the case I want to play in a pick up league - Anyone know of any?!!?

Well, with my short attention span i'm bored of this already and think I'll go get some gas for the car and the money I need for hockey

So I just changed over my lj account and I thought that since I can't sleep I'd make an entry. I have to be up at 8:30am and it's just after midnight...not too late yet but I'm wired and would really rather be sleeping.

I have 34 hours of work this week. pretty good considering I'm not even supposed to be there - by all means yesterday should have been my last day....it's bitter sweet, I'm ready for it to end for a while, but I need the money.

School is another bitter sweet for me this year...I really need some time off - no work no school, but on the other hand I'm ready to go back, ready for it all to be over :)

ok so now I'm just rambling...there are so many other things that I'd type but this is actually starting to make me bored...and sleepy (finally)!! night all